October 26 - November 1, 2020

GOALS OF THIS WEEK:
1) Prelims: Organize topics, ask to change a member, decide booklist and send it at least to advisor
2) Paper: Finish TW paper
3) Teaching: prep, lectures, sections, office hour, meeting, plan
4) Recommendation Letter: Finish it

十一月开心！

上周Paper用时26小时，Teaching用时29.5小时(加上杂碎checking email时间够30小时了)。上上周在Teaching也用了26小时，overworking太久了。

1. Prelims:

1) Organize topics
2) send email to advisor for change member to Prof. A
3) decide book list and send it to advisor

2. Paper:

1) Results: Framing Process
2) Conclusion
3) Abstract
4) Reference list: check
5) Send it to Steven

3. Teaching:

1) lectures *2
2) section prep
3) sections * 4
4) office hour * 2
5) section plan to group + send it
6) Meeting (presented section plan)

4. Recommendation Letter

write and send

Monday 8H
Paper: 6H
Teaching: 2H
早上只懒床一小会儿醒来就已经九点半。冬天比夏天时节起床要晚因为阳差，最近天气太阴凉了，尽管每天拉开百叶窗入睡早上也没有太阳叫醒我。

10-11:30am: Paper -  reorganized Results part, added new content to framing strategy
1:30-5pm: Paper - 1) Results: Framing Process (拖拖拉拉得一边玩一边写的，中途还给植物换了个新土新盆。) - FINISHED at the end :)
8-9pm: Paper - added q-critique
9-11:30pm: Teaching - section preps (required readings * 2) + finalized tmr's slide & google sheet + email response -- FINISHED

今日份感恩: 虽然Cheese Danish没得卖，但买的巧克力可颂也很好吃呀。晚餐还助攻了室友人生做的第一份意面！晚餐后腌了两份鸡腿: 新奥尔良 & 红烧 :)

Tuesday:
Teaching: 7H
太累了，教完课吃完晚餐泡完澡就睡了。

9:30-11:30am: Teaching - Lecture
12-5pm: Teaching - section * 4

Wednesday 5H
Paper: 1H
Prelims: 1H
Teaching: 3H

9-10am: Teaching - OH (while section plan prep)
10-10:30am: Teaching - section plan prep (next week)
11-12:30pm: Teaching - continued and send it to group -- FINISHED
2-3pm: Prelims - organize topics and send email to advisor -- Finally did. 

还是有在抗拒，其实是害怕一些东西。不敢去面对结果而逃避，或一直会猜测没有发生的事情，猜测到的结果都是坏的，based on自己的担心和不自信。以前也有过这样的经历，当多半得到好的结果，又会自我感动，其实原因就是内心对自己的不认可，觉得自己配不上好结果。还是不自信，不接纳现在这样子的自己。我需要一遍一遍一遍一遍地意识到这个，提醒自己，改变思维方式。

结果大半夜自己又记笔记准备prelim。

还有态度，很重要。

Thursday 6H
Paper: .5H
Teaching: 5.5H
持続的な集中力と精神的なエネルギーのトレーニングが資格試験には必要である。

9:30-11:30am: Teaching - lecture
12-1pm: Teaching - TA meeting (present section plan)
4-6pm: Teaching - section plan & email student problems
7-7:30pm: Teaching - section plan - FINISHED
11pm-11:30am: Paper - read the full paper, pick main points --> 2) Conclusion -- not done anything

Friday 9H
Paper: 8H
Teaching: .5H
Prelims: .5H
月亮好美，隔着树枝，都那么亮。
看了眼天气，下周一整周都会有太阳。哇，好棒，我最怕冬天没有太阳了！

9-9:30am: Teaching - exam check 
10-12:30pm: Paper - read full paper, pick main points for 2) conclusion + revised several places
12:50-1:20: Paper - continue previous tasks
1:30-2pm: Prelims - Meeting with advisor L (大哭。。。呃meeting结束半小时情绪都还没有散)
2-5pm: Paper - continue previous tasks -- FINISHED revision + main points for 2) conclusion
5-6pm: Paper - 2) Conclusion
8-9pm: Paper - continue 2) Conclusion --> added emotional aspect of motivational framing + data calculation....so conclusion still not finished.

Weekdays: 
Paper 15.5H + Teaching 18H + Prelims 1.5H = 35H [ave 7H]
虽然心情低落起伏，整体工作状态还不错。如果算上教课有关的email check那工作时长还会更长。今天的临时会议没有参加，因爆哭后情绪没有缓和不想让自己挂着哭脸去开会。

感恩，今晚还有暖暖的热水澡，一边泡着一边看着电影咯咯咯得笑 :)
周末继续加油！

Saturday: 5.5H
Paper: 5H
Teaching: .5H

9-9:30 - Teaching - Grading -- DONE!
10:30-12pm: Paper - 2) Conclusion only about half page is okay (single-spaced) -- FINISHED 虽然总分心但还是坚持下来了！
2:30-3pm: Paper - add important point into intro (significance/contribution) + 4) reference list --- FINISHED
3-4:30pm: Paper - 3) abstract
4:30-6pm: Paper - add Coding Book into Appendix, need to revise previous coding book by looking at Method part. need to revise large part, reduce words and sub-frames + send to Steven -- ALL DONE!

完成了写了要半年的paper，心情复杂吧。要说多开心也没有，就是这件事终于到了最终阶段的感觉吧。

对“过去”的理解，是: 每一个我做的，都是当下我所能做到的最好。这个最好，是所有因素都考虑进去的总和，我相信自己会那样做肯定有那样做的理由。

晚上又看了电影，比较短，还好。
睡前YOGA :)

Sunday:

11月开心！
10月听了34张album/EP/Single。

最近学着做一件事之前，不是去想这件事要做什么要怎样做，而是“我对这件事的态度是什么”以及“我应以怎样的心态对待这件事情”。自省了很久，也渐渐观察到身边发生的，认为: 表里合一发自内心对自我及他人尊重是做所有事情的前提。有了这个前提，才会重视每一个机会，认真对待每一件事，而这件事的过程和结果最终也会反映出你的态度。

Recommendation Letter - Finished (拖拖拉拉得写完了，大概一个小时)