the orphan

December, 2018

I, Ava Smith, sit here writing my diary, confused and tearing up. I have been born in this loving family, am i getting replaced? my parents have to me and my brother, Lucas, that they were going to adopt this orphan girl, Sara, i am happy for this girl but, i have a deep feeling that i might get replaced by her, she'll probably get SHOWERED with love and, maybe, ill be lonely sitting on my bed..?

my brother Lucas, the youngest, was SHOCKED when he heard the news, he looked happy but i could see in his eyes and heart, deeply down, he had this replaced feeling, will my parents still love me if the girl Sara comes? i had no idea...

December, 2018

today was the day Sara comes.. my parents told me to take good care of me and fill her with love, we got into the car and drove for an hour, to this orphanage. mom and dad told me to wait in the car and so i did, after a while my parents came back with Sara and when i looked at her, my heart skipped a beat, she had long hair, brown eyes, and this soft voice, maybe she would be the 'perfect' child, i thought. just as we drove home, she sat next to me. "h.. hi" "im sara, and i believe your name is Ava?" she asked

"yea" i answered the car was quiet as we waited patiently.. as we got home i showed sara her room.. we had dinner as usual and went to bed..

i went to bed with fears of being left out, i had a strange feeling about this Sara girl, she would eat quickly and chugged the glass of water.. i was walking pass her room and she was chanting these strange words.. with candles around her

January, 2019

I no longer feel safe around Sara, school has enrolled and she's been acting so strange.. she keeps whispering and chanting these words, the.. sin.. gets.. adopted.. and I have no idea what to do about it, i told my family and only Lucas believed it?! i can't believe it, my parents doesn't care about me as much and Sara's got all the attention on christmas and normal days.. only my brother cares about me and he's only 8.. im 12 and i can't really cook, all i do is write on this diary hoping all my negative thoughts would go away.. am i a failure and a disappointment..?