November 2 - 8, 2020

😊 开始了30 DAYS OF YOGA的挑战，在:

GOALS OF THE WEEK: [Urgency | Importance]
1. Prelims [High | High]:  (Election week会很忙，下周send to prof-s)
a) booklist: Collectivism vs. Individualism
b) booklist: Identity
2. Paper [Low | High]:
a) finish PolGen paper
3. Teaching [High | Low]: 
a) section prep
b) lectures (Tue & Thur)
c) sections * 4 (Tue)  -- ELECTION
d) office hour (Mon & Wed)
e) meeting (Thur)

Monday
Paper: 4.5H
Teaching: 1H

9-10am: Teaching - OH (while section prep: delete multiple choice question and T/F question, add more to writing example, complete group activity #2 (ppt & slides))
10:30-11pm: Paper - Political Generation: found previous paper & data, not started checking yet because time was used on checking previous photos.....
3:30-5:30pm: Paper - Political generation: re-read the paper, revised and reconstructed IV, DV, Control (all put into the new Slides of paper outline), defined new political generations based on historical event and political implications. Next step:
7-9pm: Paper - Data prep: create a new variable "gene" and coded 0 as the 1st and 1 as the 2nd generation

Tuesday [Election Day]
Teaching: 6.5H
Paper: 1.5H

9:30-10:45am: Teaching - Lecture
12-5pm: Teaching - Section
7:30-9pm: Paper - double check each variable (IV, DV, Control)

Wednesday
Teaching: 1H
Paper: 6H
Job Application: 1H

9-10am: Teaching - OH (while watching election & cleaning)
11-12:30pm: Paper: change the construct of each variable (DV: vote, par_ele, cont, protest)
12:30-1:30pm: Job Application -- Done
3-5pm: Paper: change the construct of variables (Controls)
5:30-7pm: Paper: clean dataset & data analysis (descriptive & correlation)
8:50-9:50pm: Paper - Data analysis (regression)+interaction

临时来的工作申请通知。午饭延迟只为了快点交上。
原来之前的data没有clean，从1150一直清到385。data run的结果也不是很理想，很大可能需要推翻。心底时不时冒出“要不这个paper就这么 算了?”的疑问。但真的可惜。这周已经花了这么久在整理data，翻出之前的paper看。就这样扔掉有点浪费。想了下: 解决方法之一是先看1990s历史，决定是否重新构建gene。解决方法之二是在现有的数据和结果中理出一条有意思的story line。周日之前把这两个方法实施一下。理清: which historical events --> what kind of behavior?

YOGA已经进行到DAY4。昨天做到仰卧扭转体式时明显感到脊椎和腰部疼痛，而且左右疼痛不对称。今天结束后特地又练习了一下，还是痛疼，不过好一些。

今天的事情今天做了，明天要做明天的事情。

Thursday
Teaching: 6H
Paper: 1H

-9am: check email, send email to H asking time for meeting, if not available what about next week
9-9:30am: Teaching - quiz questions prep (check required reading, read)
9:30-10:45am: Teaching - Lecture
12-1pm: Teaching - meeting
1:30-4:30pm: Teaching - quiz questions prep (read, come up 3 multiple choice questions, send it to prof) -- Finished
8:50-9:50pm: Paper - 1) 看1990s历史，决定是否重新构建gene；2) 在现有的数据和结果中理出一条有意思的story line --> If stuck, stop do it. No need to put more time on this.

Friday:

1-1:30: Teaching - Student reserved meeting

一整天身体不舒服，一整天都在睡觉。还是完成了和学生的meeting，晚上泡了脚身上暖暖，完成了yoga day 6。希望明天身体感觉好一些。

Weekdays:
5.5H + 8H + 8H + 7H + .5H = 29H [ave = 5.8H]
Paper 13H + Teaching 14.5H + Job Application 1H

Saturday

自然醒8点前，起床9点。立冬了，要早睡晚起一些。起床后头还是痛，颈部很多一按就痛的地方，帖了很多片salonpas，脊椎有问题，可能还有别的问题，也是最近开始瑜珈的原因。

8:30-9:30pm: Teaching - section prep

Sunday
Teaching: 4H

9-10am: Teaching - section prep
接着昨晚的工作继续了。虽然学期大半过去，还是想和学生讨论一下remote learning的tips。在准备的过程中觉得，我们能在家里上班，或学生可以在家里学习，已经是在这种全球pandemic里最好最值得珍惜的事情了，因为很多人根本没办法remote完成工作，要么顶着被感染的风险，要么被请辞。所以，珍惜吧。
10-1pm: Teaching - textbook reading (Chap 9 & 10) + student emails -- ALL DONE！

原来完全没有做有关prelims的项目，尽管标成high urgency high importance。

周五开始至周末的整日停摆完全是身体不舒服导致，而这种身体不舒服导致我的精神状态非常低落。脑海里不断回想各种失败各种令自己不舒服的事件，大的小的，各种方面的，压得我就像掉进了一个黑洞。坐在书桌前需要不断调整呼吸，并不停地告诉自己这些情绪都会过去都会过去都会过去，甚至昨晚紧张着急到凌晨从恶梦里醒来。平时完全不会做梦的自己啊，梦里有熟悉的脸但也都不记得了。想起之前在国内有段时间压力大，梦到有人拿铁钩活生生得刺穿我的锁骨。身体没有感觉，只是精神压力很痛苦。

身体的不舒服也是一直拖着的慢性病，习惯性头痛，已经每月必发，一发必半周都无法工作，并且情绪会非常低落，低落到完全没有希望。脖子还是不舒服，一些炎症还是没有下去，药在路上，疼痛减缓许多了。

今晚是YOGA DAY 8 -- HEAL。恰巧。非常舒服非常治愈的一段体验。
我看着自己的手，自己的腿，怎么舍得抛弃你们呢。