freak out

太諷刺了我竟然學英語學到崩潰。

總是這麼低分，我該怎麼辦啊。美好的生活就在眼前，我卻絲毫不能抓住他們。

不要浪費時間了。這句話意思是不要再學了根本不是這塊料還是說繼續學吧。

英語是我永恆的痛苦之源，我沒有辦法駕馭這門語言。但你捫心自問，你盡力了嗎。你不過是在金錢方面盡力。你的地圖題一塌糊塗，你的方位也是。語法也是。

為什麼。I have a bad memory. I can't apply my ability to speak or write anything. I hate it because I can't get any happiness from it. But this is only IELTS, not academic English, you will struggle more in the future. It is not a catastrophe in the world.

I know resources I know grammar I know everything I need but I can't do anything. I watch my confidence go away from me I am stupid I am a softie I am awkward I am just waiting for others' answers

No one waits for you The only person who can save you is yourself

How terrible you are. Look at yourself.

Try to go through your works tonight. Don't do other things, even though for writing, you haven't ready. You have tasted the desperate emotion. I don't want to experience it again.